When I started doing a weekly update about our life in Lockdown, I just hadn’t imagined it lasting this long. Taking a photo every day felt like a way to keep up something I enjoy (photography) alongside recording this strange time but as we settled into this new normal, it got harder. I love looking back now at those early weeks where I had so much more enthusiasm for home learning and so much more anxiety around the whole situation. Unfortunately both of those have dwindled and now I feel happier having days with no plans, being at home, enjoying the slower pace of life and I also have less energy for home learning when trying to balance it with everything else.
We also made the decision to send Finn back to school on June 15th and he now does 4 days a week. Dylan is going back next Monday and Cora is back doing two morning sessions at nursery. Lockdown doesn’t look quite the same for us anymore and whilst we are still social distancing and avoiding many of our usual places, there is a bit more freedom and a little less stress. I want to continue sharing how we are doing but not in the same daily structure.
I have lost track of which week we are on now, but we have started going out more. The older boys were getting more and more reluctant to leave the house and I could see how it was affecting both their mental and physical health so I am building it into our week more and we are lucky enough to be surrounded by beaches so we can usually find a nice quiet one. We still have plenty of days where we don’t go out at all and we have fallen into more of a routine with our home learning now that Finn is at school. The structure that the school run brings to our day has made us all more productive I think.
I still find that things can feel very extreme. Without that social side that I rely on to help me process my feelings sometimes, I still find myself having quite extreme highs and lows. Some days I think this is such an amazing opportunity to really stop and enjoy my children without any outside pressure, without any commitments elsewhere, and other times I feel so exhausted by it all and I just want to hide under a duvet all day. The Corona Fatigue is definitely real, but with more time outdoors it is definitely getting to me less than it was.
The news that the world is opening up a lot more as of July 4th has also lifted my mood. We won’t be rushing out to cinemas, museums and restaurants but knowing that there are options when we do need to break up the monotony is a comforting thought and when we are ready we can access more entertainment and more normality.
These photos do not show an accurate representation of the past 3 or 4 weeks at all, they show the highlights, the moments I felt inspired to take out my camera, the best bits of the week. Know that there were arguments, battles, stand offs, afternoons spent watching films as I lost the energy to parent, a drive through mcdonalds and quite a bit of time where I was sat in my hammock with a book whilst the children played on the xbox. These photos are also mostly of Cora who is happy to have her photo taken more, the boys pick and choose with that so don’t appear as much.